tick-tock, tick-tock

Moving to Fayetteville was cheating a little bit because I already had a relationship with Jenny...a ready-made friend. But all my other Fayetteville friends seemed to happen so naturally and so quickly. Before I knew it, I had this great group of girlfriends that was easy. This week, Brian and Rebekah came through and spent the night with us on their way out of town. It was wonderful to have them in our house just like they had been a hundred times before. It was easy to parent around her and to watch our kids run around comfortably with each other. It felt so natural and so familiar. I guess I'm realizing that I'm pretty alone right now. I miss all you girls so bad and I miss your kids running around. I miss the noise of hearing someone call out "miss becky" and knowing exactly who it was without even looking, or Jenny telling Joel he can't have juice and then Joel coming and asking me for juice. Change sucks...We've all been pregnant together, had babies together, participated in welcoming home babies and then watching them grow to be amazing kids. I don't want new friends...I want my friends.